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At times I feel like Alice who fell down the rabbit hole Confused and lost and not knowing where to go But then I met the Mad Hatter Crazy, but smart A little bit out there But able to help me in my quest While being a friend he helped me find my way He showed me how to find my way He showed me how to find myself without depending on others He showed me how to fight on my own and win Feelings of more than friendship began to surface and I felt afraid And he told me the same, just a little too late The moment of truth came When Alice had to leave him behind What if I never find him again? Or worse What if I do and they don't want anything to d

The show is about to start But our star isn’t ready She has never shown her face to the public She has always worn a mask And for once it will be gone She will show for one night Who she is Act I Scene I A three year old girl enters She is in her room Clutching her teddy bear She plugs her ears and that’s when it begins The yelling and the screaming Crashes echo all around her Cop sirens can be heard Her father is being taken away She whispers, “Thank god.” Act I Scene II A five year old girl enters She is sitting in a doctors office The doctor walks in, a therapist She holds a book and a bear The bear gets passed of

Do you remember your name? I seem to have forgotten it The time that has passed Has made me forgetful I no longer remember your name But I do remember your smile They way you laugh How angry you can get How forceful you can be But I remember making you happy I remember the feeling of your lips on mine I remember the feel of your hands going lower Without my permission I remember not being able to speak I remember the nights we stayed up yelling and screaming Through a phone We could hardly see each other And when we did It was when we snuck around I became a bitch because of you I became a liar because of you I became afraid because of you I

My past will always be there But that doesn’t define who I am I am no longer the scars on my wrists I am no longer the thoughts that plague me at night My past will always be there But I am not my parents divorce I am no longer the one at fault I am no longer the one to blame My past will always be there But I am not the victim anymore I do not let the bullies affect me I do not care what they have to say My past will always be there But I am who I am because of it I am the strong girl who loves color guard I am the punk girl who loves to wear dark colors I am the country girl who loves horses and the outdoors I am the internet junky

I built a home for you in my heart So if you ever need a place to stay You are welcome here. When your family is yelling And you need to get away You are welcome here When your boyfriend cheated on you And you need a shoulder to cry on You are welcome here When your girlfriend’s parents Refused to let you be together You are welcome here When school has put too much pressure And the workload is too much for you to handle You are welcome here When you need a friend But no one is there for you You are welcome here When you need someone To punch away your pain You are welcome here When you need someone To show support You are welcom

Would you love me Despite my scars? Would you love me Despite my family? Would you love me Even if I couldn't trust you? Would you love me If I broke down every night? Would you love me When you caught me cutting? Would you love me When you caught me lying? Would you love me When I screamed at you (For no apparent reason)? Would you love me When I just walk away? Would you love me If I could not love myself? Would you love me If I say I couldn't make this work? Would you love me If I just gave up? Would you love me When I tried to kill myself? Would you love me When I was high on pain meds? Would you love me When I couldn't speak

Breathe in Breathe out Again In for four seconds Hold for another four And let it out in eight seconds Place your hand above your heart Feel it Do you feel the beat of your heart? That’s your purpose Your reason for living Your heart is what gives life to everything To your future partner With whom you can not live without For they now have what keeps you alive To your future children Should you choose to have them Who look to you when they are hurt When they are lost When they want to die But this heart The heart that gives so much love Has been broken Abused Mistreated It’s shattered but still has the same power This heart ca